In rereading, I realized my last regular post here was almost one year ago; some things have changed, others have not.
I’m currently well, in fact I don’t think I have ever felt better in my life. I understand that even when symptoms aren’t present, the underlying condition isn’t gone, merely dormant, but it is great to feel this good.
It’s been just about a year since I last heard from Ed – he tried being assertive, which was downright laughable; I informed him that not only had I done nothing wrong, even citing the valid legal argument and precedent behind my position, I had kept all of his email, and his notes were quite damning in a legal and personal sense – replete with confessions after all. I then let him know that any potential suit he brought against me would be met by my suit against him; he let it all go, just as I knew he would. Ed’s a coward, making a grand show for people he wants the world to believe he cares for. He is infinitely pitiable and disgusting.
It’s Christmas again, which means family parties and events in healthy extended families – not so much in mine. My wife has been in contact via text messages with my sister these last couple of weeks, but other than that we’ve not been in touch. My aunt still hasn’t seen my mother (but has remained in very welcomed contact with me). To the best of my knowledge, there will be no rekindling of family ties this holiday season.
An article I stumbled upon recently stated the holidays were infinitely painful for those estranged from family, but I have never seen evidence of this in mine. For the most part, I think my parents, especially Pat, felt well rid of me by the time I cut ties with them; if they felt differently, they did not share or elaborate. And me, well I was far too busy enjoying my first taste of true happiness to feel saddened by the estrangement, even in those first few holiday seasons. Now, many years later, I cannot imagine any of us miss the others just because it’s Christmas. This fact speaks volumes as to the depth of dysfunction that was always so much a part of who we were as a family.
I have given extensive thought as to the direction Silence Shattered will take in the new year. I will be posting frequently again, with a focus on my original mission: to explore the link between child abuse and mental illness; the evidence is conclusive, compelling, and it must be shared.
Last week, I was contacted by a contributor to BetterHelp.com, the largest online platform for counseling services, and asked if I’d share as infographic on Silence Shattered, as well as a link to their depression resources. The infographic is forthcoming in an upcoming post, and the link is below:
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.